Shield

 

Shield, water color on paper, 21.0 x 14.8cm, 2023

I am not really confident at all. I just make myself look that way because it is important for me to look confident outwardly. I grew up being told for a long time that I was dirty, ugly, and stupid. I was often told that I shouldn't have been born. So sometimes when my mind wanders, I fall into the trap of thinking that I'm not worthy. It is like a curse song. But I don't want to fall into it anymore. I want to build a shield. Something that I can affirm so that I don't lose myself.