Art and Act Winner Ayuna artist interview

1. I’m an artist. And what makes me an artist is my persona ‘A’.  Her paintings are inspired by nature. She comes from my childhood. Since I was very young,  the world was only but savage  and violent. 

I had to survive and always thought HOW could I make this violent world bearable.

And in the end, ‘Persona A’ was born to save my soul. 

She brought me to the forest whenever I was torn and beaten by the world.

Nature healed me.

Breeze touching the leaves, earth, water, lights.

Yes, those things gave an answer how I could make my life livable or even better.

Nature gave me a life. And ‘Persona A’ believes nature has a revitalizing, reinvigorating power. 

‘Persona A’ is very strong,  tough and very willing to save the souls of others as she did mine. She tries to make the power of nature visible and my painting  is what she envisions.

2.  Sea foam is a white foam formed when the sea water crashes. 

Sea foam is formed and also vanishes all of sudden. In this repetitive process, 

only the essence is left and the other not- essential things disappear. 

The process would recycle to form a whole structure that would be a solid network. 

In other words, the sea foam is the essence and origin of the sea. 

We start a ritual spreading the white sea foam over our body. 

Hoping that what the sea foam has achieved would be carved on us. 

We are embracing ourselves.

3. And Marie Marzloff Award 2020’s theme opening window is interconnected 

with my reflection and future art work. 

It is about coexistence of hope and fear.  I think whether I fear or not, I found that 

I always wish for something hopeful. As it is winter now, actually and as a metaphor, I wish spring would come and  help everyone feel the warm wind, the moist earth, the blooming buds. Furthermore, I wish it to show them a hope that every life would sprout. 

BUT  I wish so much for spring to come and bring a life, sometimes I feel scared 

if it doesn’t come at all. I fear that spring will not come. 

Ironically, my fear comes out of wish, desire for wish. But I want to accept the fear because having hope is so precious and valuable.  Fear comes after hope and it is inevitable, 

as shadow comes after light. The important thing is not losing a balance between them. 

I want to focus on hope with an existence of fear. I want to be in control on both of them. And my future project is about how to balance between hope and fear 

and I want to awaken spring inside of people in spite of fear. 

Since the world is all connected and we affect each others, I think this is a time when this view is needed more than ever. 

As an artist, I want to show a way to balance of hope and fear in spreading 

uncertainty though out the world. 

Awaken Spring will soon be my new Window Opening.